yes yes yes, it's that time of year. The official beginning of Spring is this weekend and in anticipation of it the Spring Cleaning bug is nipping at my toes.
in doing a search for Spring Cleaning checklists and articles i found this one that i thought was lovely. it includes recipes and ideas for what to clean. not so much the checklist. martha has one of course, if you wanna get down and dirty, she doesn't talk green, but if you are like me i have to edit/adjust everything anyway to fit my taste. *shrug* so no worries.
here is the best of both worlds. :)
happy cleaning!
Monday, March 15, 2010
Friday, March 12, 2010
friday mornings
the little boys are doing yoga, although M2 did tell me that he can't do the ABC on yet, cause he's not in first grade. he made me laugh. well i should amend that and say that one of them is doing yoga, the other one is, i'm pretty sure, destroying the play room. i remember this stage with the older two boys where they would just sweep everything off the shelves, pull everything out of the little kitchen, leave a huge wake of mess as they would walk away and sit quietly and read a book. M3 is a pro at destruction, he's pretty good about helping to clean up, but you know the horror you have when you walk into the room and it's so chaotic it just takes your breath away? happens at least two times a day here...
my blog is missing pictures and it slays me not to have them posted here. my beautiful boys and all their craziness. my camera was stolen out of my car over a year ago. they broke the window and took my purse, right in front of school while i was dropping off M1. oh my heart was broken. i was also attempting to take a picture of the boys everyday, which is an amazing feat in itself, and all those pictures gone. no i did not upload them. and yes i know... ;)
let's see i can figure something out...
i can't use pictures from FB, now that's a bummer!
my blog is missing pictures and it slays me not to have them posted here. my beautiful boys and all their craziness. my camera was stolen out of my car over a year ago. they broke the window and took my purse, right in front of school while i was dropping off M1. oh my heart was broken. i was also attempting to take a picture of the boys everyday, which is an amazing feat in itself, and all those pictures gone. no i did not upload them. and yes i know... ;)
let's see i can figure something out...
this in Oct, obviously, our goddaughter R was in town w/her moma R*. we had such a good time!
moma and M2
Our nubian Queen. :)
crazy driver already...
i'm thinking there was some nakedness going on there...knowing me :)
i can't use pictures from FB, now that's a bummer!
Thursday, March 11, 2010
lighter shoulders
exhale
yes! we had come to the point this weekend of making a decision about the boys education. i was of the mind to pull our oldest from school and start homeschooling them as of this past Monday, but my level headed husband said, why don't we wait until Spring Break and do it then. the relief of making the decision and the added benefit of us having money to do the little things, you know like being able to feed our family and put gas in the car, was much appreciated.
so, my husband put the proverbial gauntlet down and said okay now you have to figure out what your teaching and find your rhythm. you have 3 weeks. my thought was to ask M1's teacher for the rest of this years lessons so that we would just leave off where he started. i was also going to ask if he would mentor my sweet boy and also help me with the curriculum for next year and to ask him how to teach to my boy, so that my lack of patience doesn't ruin everything. so i typed up that email and off it went and that evening he called. i was expecting this, of course, was i wasn't expecting was for this man to offer to pay M1's tuition out of his own savings. he's a teacher at a Waldorf school, for gods sake, so you know he's not making big bucks. oh my, he just floored me with his love and generosity. he told us that he really thought that it was important that M1 finish this year, for closure, but also because he had come so far this year. we told him we would talk to the finance guy at school and see what could be done.
that meeting happened today. M1 can finish the year and our payments have been suspended. really they are just being added to the back we owe them anyway, but he did say that if we want to return that we would have to chip away at the back as well as pay what we owe for the boys tuitions. really and truly i don't see us returning, but i'm not closing that door. you never know, but i'm just so jubilant with the thought of us creating our own school where all the boys will be participating regardless of age.
exhale with a contented smile.
yes! we had come to the point this weekend of making a decision about the boys education. i was of the mind to pull our oldest from school and start homeschooling them as of this past Monday, but my level headed husband said, why don't we wait until Spring Break and do it then. the relief of making the decision and the added benefit of us having money to do the little things, you know like being able to feed our family and put gas in the car, was much appreciated.
so, my husband put the proverbial gauntlet down and said okay now you have to figure out what your teaching and find your rhythm. you have 3 weeks. my thought was to ask M1's teacher for the rest of this years lessons so that we would just leave off where he started. i was also going to ask if he would mentor my sweet boy and also help me with the curriculum for next year and to ask him how to teach to my boy, so that my lack of patience doesn't ruin everything. so i typed up that email and off it went and that evening he called. i was expecting this, of course, was i wasn't expecting was for this man to offer to pay M1's tuition out of his own savings. he's a teacher at a Waldorf school, for gods sake, so you know he's not making big bucks. oh my, he just floored me with his love and generosity. he told us that he really thought that it was important that M1 finish this year, for closure, but also because he had come so far this year. we told him we would talk to the finance guy at school and see what could be done.
that meeting happened today. M1 can finish the year and our payments have been suspended. really they are just being added to the back we owe them anyway, but he did say that if we want to return that we would have to chip away at the back as well as pay what we owe for the boys tuitions. really and truly i don't see us returning, but i'm not closing that door. you never know, but i'm just so jubilant with the thought of us creating our own school where all the boys will be participating regardless of age.
exhale with a contented smile.
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Change gonna come our way...
whether we like it or not, there's change a comin. some of it i'm looking forward to, the other, well i won't really know til i'm in the middle of it, thank the gods. :)
how is that that you can have a heavy heart and excited butterflies at the same time? well i know one thing for certain we will be lighter for the conversation and decision we came to, it is the best choice for our family, and nothing is forever. that's the key that i have to remember. instead of getting all bogged down in absolutes, realize that nothing is permanent. i return stuff to the store all the time, clothes, food, so why don't we know going into things that it's not a deal breaker to try it out, and if it doesn't work look for another way to do it or accomplish it. Thursday will be "proof in the pudding". either way though i'm already happier for making the choice.
yes, this is cryptic, but i'm not quite ready to put stuff into black and white just yet, so...you're gonna have to wait. til Thursday afternoon.
how is that that you can have a heavy heart and excited butterflies at the same time? well i know one thing for certain we will be lighter for the conversation and decision we came to, it is the best choice for our family, and nothing is forever. that's the key that i have to remember. instead of getting all bogged down in absolutes, realize that nothing is permanent. i return stuff to the store all the time, clothes, food, so why don't we know going into things that it's not a deal breaker to try it out, and if it doesn't work look for another way to do it or accomplish it. Thursday will be "proof in the pudding". either way though i'm already happier for making the choice.
yes, this is cryptic, but i'm not quite ready to put stuff into black and white just yet, so...you're gonna have to wait. til Thursday afternoon.
Friday, March 5, 2010
I love Jamie Oliver. I enjoy his food and I am behind him in his efforts to educate and change the way America and England eat.
jamie oliver's speech
jamie oliver's speech
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
blog crush?
is this a possible thing, a blog crush?
i was perusing down in the meadow, a blog by Suzane, a Waldorf homeschooling/crafting moma out in South Africa and i was systematically making my way through the links she has of the blogs she follows and i found Sara at farmama. *sigh* i had to start at the beginning of her blog so i didn't miss anything. i am humbled and amazed by this woman, her husband, their children, and dedication to family and farm. i am inspired.
i've been deliberating about homeschooling and reading her blog put me over. i can do it. it would be fun, BUT before i jump in with both feet i have to see a couple things through. i had put in an application with anthropologie, and got an interview for next week. why, you ask, when everything else about me is green crunchy waldorf and family? cause i love beautiful things (i just rolled my eyes at myself), i love to create, and then there's the money thing.
it's all kind of wrapped up in the decision of what to do for our family and school for the boys.
we have three options that i can see:
1. me get a job, all three boys go to the Waldorf school in Northridge. it's a lot of money. then there's the what to do with the boys for all those breaks from school and summer. yikes, more money!
2. me get a job, the older two boys go to Mariposa, find childcare for M3. school is public Waldorf inspired, but childcare for M3 is money. honey :) same as 1 for the breaks
3. me homeschool. the money for homeschool would be insignificant when measured against what we were spending for HHWS. hmmm no extra money out the door for childcare for breaks and whatnot...
what do i want. i would like to be home with the boys. now this is earth shattering and a lot of growth for me. previously i could not wait for school. to get them all out the door and finally have time for myself again. this is just one of my many diversionary tactics to avoid dealing with myself though. last year i started to feel the urge to do more, be more for our family and to connect more with the boys. M3 was a baby though and the thought of homeschooling and having to give him so much of my attention, i felt like i would be failing the older boys with the attention they needed for their schooling. this year has been very different though. i don't know when i started just wanting to have them here and dreading the drive out to school. i worked it out so that we are carpooling, which is nice, but even doing that is getting old and i just want M1 home. the last break we had was nice. granted it wasn't perfect, but neither am i, but it was much smoother than it ever was in the past and i was really looking forward to it. Spring Break is coming up the end of March and i'm really looking forward to that. :)
when i made the decision to homeschool yesterday morning i started contacting Waldorf homeschooling families here to start a group. you know, getting together for one block of something, all ages, and just having a day of it. gardening, handwork, etc....i am really excited about the prospects of doing it with the boys and taking it down to a fundamental Steiner philosophy of including the children in the meaningful work of taking care of the family home and at the same time naturally integrating their minds, hearts, and hands. then, the interview phone call that afternoon.
i believe everything happens for a reason. i set the job thing in motion and now i don't want to do it. am i chickening out? my intuition is telling me that being home with them is what i need, to slow down, live in the present, and enjoy them in all their innocence and wisdom.
i fear telling J that i've changed my mind. he gets so frustrated with my wishy-washiness. which i can understand. i tend to react emotionally to situations and don't clearly think things out, or if presented with a more attractive option i will go with that. cause i didn't think of it in the first place and it just makes more sense. but to him i'm being contrary.
so i had half decided to just let it ride, but as i'm hammering this out right now i believe i know what to do and that's have the conversation with J and see what he thinks. this trust, making decisions together for the best of the family thing is tough.
wish me luck.
i was perusing down in the meadow, a blog by Suzane, a Waldorf homeschooling/crafting moma out in South Africa and i was systematically making my way through the links she has of the blogs she follows and i found Sara at farmama. *sigh* i had to start at the beginning of her blog so i didn't miss anything. i am humbled and amazed by this woman, her husband, their children, and dedication to family and farm. i am inspired.
i've been deliberating about homeschooling and reading her blog put me over. i can do it. it would be fun, BUT before i jump in with both feet i have to see a couple things through. i had put in an application with anthropologie, and got an interview for next week. why, you ask, when everything else about me is green crunchy waldorf and family? cause i love beautiful things (i just rolled my eyes at myself), i love to create, and then there's the money thing.
it's all kind of wrapped up in the decision of what to do for our family and school for the boys.
we have three options that i can see:
1. me get a job, all three boys go to the Waldorf school in Northridge. it's a lot of money. then there's the what to do with the boys for all those breaks from school and summer. yikes, more money!
2. me get a job, the older two boys go to Mariposa, find childcare for M3. school is public Waldorf inspired, but childcare for M3 is money. honey :) same as 1 for the breaks
3. me homeschool. the money for homeschool would be insignificant when measured against what we were spending for HHWS. hmmm no extra money out the door for childcare for breaks and whatnot...
what do i want. i would like to be home with the boys. now this is earth shattering and a lot of growth for me. previously i could not wait for school. to get them all out the door and finally have time for myself again. this is just one of my many diversionary tactics to avoid dealing with myself though. last year i started to feel the urge to do more, be more for our family and to connect more with the boys. M3 was a baby though and the thought of homeschooling and having to give him so much of my attention, i felt like i would be failing the older boys with the attention they needed for their schooling. this year has been very different though. i don't know when i started just wanting to have them here and dreading the drive out to school. i worked it out so that we are carpooling, which is nice, but even doing that is getting old and i just want M1 home. the last break we had was nice. granted it wasn't perfect, but neither am i, but it was much smoother than it ever was in the past and i was really looking forward to it. Spring Break is coming up the end of March and i'm really looking forward to that. :)
when i made the decision to homeschool yesterday morning i started contacting Waldorf homeschooling families here to start a group. you know, getting together for one block of something, all ages, and just having a day of it. gardening, handwork, etc....i am really excited about the prospects of doing it with the boys and taking it down to a fundamental Steiner philosophy of including the children in the meaningful work of taking care of the family home and at the same time naturally integrating their minds, hearts, and hands. then, the interview phone call that afternoon.
i believe everything happens for a reason. i set the job thing in motion and now i don't want to do it. am i chickening out? my intuition is telling me that being home with them is what i need, to slow down, live in the present, and enjoy them in all their innocence and wisdom.
i fear telling J that i've changed my mind. he gets so frustrated with my wishy-washiness. which i can understand. i tend to react emotionally to situations and don't clearly think things out, or if presented with a more attractive option i will go with that. cause i didn't think of it in the first place and it just makes more sense. but to him i'm being contrary.
so i had half decided to just let it ride, but as i'm hammering this out right now i believe i know what to do and that's have the conversation with J and see what he thinks. this trust, making decisions together for the best of the family thing is tough.
wish me luck.
important things to remember
oh my. you know that feeling upon waking in the morning where just the mere thought of getting out of bed is painful? your eyes are heavy as stones, you fall back to sleep quickly when woken by one of your children, you are already cranky and raising your voice to frisky hungry boys?
yeah. that's me this morning and here hours after finally getting my tired bum outta bed my eyes are still weary and i'm dog tired and it's all because i had sweets last night. now for those of you who don't know, your adrenal glands are this super important system of the body. the adrenals start saving, i think it's insulin, for the next day at about 2 or 3 in the afternoon. so if you eat sweets after that time, your body steals from your next day adrenals so you are setting yourself up for the next day to be a tired and cranky day. and i know this, but the thought and the allure of making mexican brownies could not be ignored. what also couldn't be ignored were the three trips i made to get more of these awesomely delicious GF brownies. how i love Trader Joes GF brownie mix! umm, but i digress. so i'm looking this morning for something for me to do for my body so i can get out of this funk and i found this link.
of course i found this after i completely trashed by stomach this morning with more brownies (damn things!) and a banana. it was an attempt at healthiness. what i really need right now is some water and a shower.
i will say though that we have found that not letting the boys have sweets late in the day is a life saver. i actually have decided that cereal is not meant to be had for breakfast. my boys spin up, act crazy, get a little sassy and weepy. it's just too much. so i think it will be a nice fun treat...hmm perhaps late morning snack with some kind of protein...nuts or something...hmmm
yeah. that's me this morning and here hours after finally getting my tired bum outta bed my eyes are still weary and i'm dog tired and it's all because i had sweets last night. now for those of you who don't know, your adrenal glands are this super important system of the body. the adrenals start saving, i think it's insulin, for the next day at about 2 or 3 in the afternoon. so if you eat sweets after that time, your body steals from your next day adrenals so you are setting yourself up for the next day to be a tired and cranky day. and i know this, but the thought and the allure of making mexican brownies could not be ignored. what also couldn't be ignored were the three trips i made to get more of these awesomely delicious GF brownies. how i love Trader Joes GF brownie mix! umm, but i digress. so i'm looking this morning for something for me to do for my body so i can get out of this funk and i found this link.
of course i found this after i completely trashed by stomach this morning with more brownies (damn things!) and a banana. it was an attempt at healthiness. what i really need right now is some water and a shower.
i will say though that we have found that not letting the boys have sweets late in the day is a life saver. i actually have decided that cereal is not meant to be had for breakfast. my boys spin up, act crazy, get a little sassy and weepy. it's just too much. so i think it will be a nice fun treat...hmm perhaps late morning snack with some kind of protein...nuts or something...hmmm
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